How can I receive his ‘no’ to love relationship with me?

When he has loved me so fully and chosen me every step of the way, how can I let it in that he is now, no longer choosing me?

In my lover’s heart these words are death. 

The agony of having shared and trusted in this love so deep, and enjoyed a love relationship so scintillatingly rich, and now to meet the reality that my ex-beloved no longer chooses it, is truly crushing.

And yet this is the reality. 

I can sieve through every possible reason for his not choosing love relationship with me, yet the reality is that he is not choosing me. 

So how do I let that into my system? 

Because I need to let it in. 

Even though a big part of me could invest myself very passionately in the fantasy of us still being together. What I most want is to live what is real. 

I want to feel and experience life as it actually is. I want to feel devoted, passionate love relationship as a reality in my life. And for this I choose to walk the path of receiving his ‘no’. For it is only if if I can be really real with his ‘no’ to me now, that I can fully receive a ‘yes’ in the future.

And so I receive his ‘no’ to love relationship with me in the place of my ‘yes’ to myself, the place of my ‘yes’ to living the love relationships I dream of in my life. The place where my highest purpose is to love myself and to love the life I have been given.

My commitment to love is the place where I am most robust and this is where I choose to receive his ‘no’ to me. For ultimately my lover’s heart is most dedicated to living love and love cannot be forced. I do not choose to try to live a love relationship with someone who does not choose that with me. 

I choose to really go for love!